I might lie to you as soon as I open my mouth, I might never reveal my emotions, I might pretend that I´m ok and I might push you away if you come too close. But what I really want is for you to never let go of me.
Many people don´t understand why some people want to die. They might say “If you want to die, why don´t you kill yourself right away?” “Are you just lusting for attention?” “If you really wanted to die you´d be dead”. But it doesn´t work that way. Not always. Just because I don´t slash my wrists…
The very first things I learned as a child were pretending to be perfect, pretending that my family was perfect, pretending that everything was fine, pretending that I never had any problems, pretending to be someone else, pretending that I was strong when really I was weak, pleasing everyone…
